Apologies first, I have not intended to be the silent partner in the whole blog thing but my internet connection has been dead since before Christmas and I have just literally had time to fix it – i.e. spent a couple for hours on the phone to India, interestingly enough one of their quick fix questions was to ask if had a Christmas tree lights on! Embarrassingly enough my last bill had bounced and the lack of internet connection may have not been unrelated.

 

Boomer being the junior member of the blwing team turned one a couple of weeks after Babybear.  This coincided with stopping breastfeeding and moving on to cows milk, which she utterly loves.

 

I has always thought that I would feed her myself for the 1^st year and then switch over to cows milk gradually in the whole spirit if baby led weaning. Things happened a little more abruptly than I thought but I do think moving onto drinking and eating from breastfeeding are quite intertwined in our case – I will try and explain.

 

Just before Christmas I started to get rubbed raw bits on my nipples which were not healing and getting slightly infected. (Nice yes I know) Breastfeeding was pretty painful but we persisted as I thought things would decrease naturally (which the feeds were) so I would just persist until the nipples healed and we wound down the breastfeeding. This was the situation for a about two weeks but things just got steadily worse and when Boomer bit me four times on hogmanay  I actually thought I was going to have to get my nipple sewed back on. On new years day I woke and decided that I would delay giving Boomer a feed until later to hep the healing, but later came and I couldn’t face it , and Boomer had been drinking cows milk all day and frankly didn’t seem that bothered.

 

So basically from then we’ve just stopped, she had been having cows milk for a while so to switch straight over I don’t think was really that hard on her. She doesn’t appear to want breastfed particularly and a snuggle and a drink seems to be an ok replacement.

 

This is why I think this was a natural conclusion, I think that my nipples were getting really damaged because Boomer had changed the way she breastfed because she was eating more. Whether her jaw muscles have changed or she has simply started to ‘forget’ how to suckle I don’t know. It wasn’t that she had more teeth she has had the same amount for the last few months. I really don’t think it was coincidence that these problems appeared around the time of her first birthday and that magically weaning point. I would be interesting the know if anybody else has noticed a similar change in feeding.

 

The main side effect of the sudden stop and not slow wind down is that my breasts have reached an engorged level only generally achieved through surgery and boy are they sore. It’s nearly a week and still the slightest knock is really painful. So If repeating the experience I would defiantly try and go for a controlled stop not an emergency one.

Lots of the information that I’ve seen and been given suggests that once you start weaning the baby will instantly take less milk and more food. Some of it even suggests dropping feeds during the day. Well, Boomer is a few days shy of nine months and still takes about 4 or 5 feeds a day, and generally one at night. She can last pretty well without milk during the day if she is at granny and grandpas but if the perpetual milk machine (me) is about then she doesn’t see the point in being strong. 

I have been lucky with breastfeeding it started well and apart from some nasty bouts of mastitis and a pornographic bra size things have flowed quite smoothly, if you pardon the pun. As a general plan I hope to feed Boomer myself till she reaches one and then switch her to drinking ordinary cow’s milk. However, best laid plans and all that, so we’ll just see how we get on. I have no plans to be a documentary mum who is still breastfeeding when her daughter has her driving license. I am very pro breastfeeding but I have heard enough heart wrenching stories to realise that it is not always the answer.

The hardest thing is probably other people who seem to think that now Boomer is on solids she will just instantly stop wanting the boob. I am obviously going to feed my baby if she wants fed. However it can be slightly embarrassing when she starts pulling my top or nuzzling into my chest – she’s not the subtlest. I think my family are pretty supportive now they have realised that I was going to spontaneously stop breastfeeding the instant Boomer hit six months. Why I would give myself something else to do (i.e. making up bottles) I don’t know.

Slowly, and I mean really slowly I am managing to fixate less on these magical time markers. Every little stage is held out before you as if once you get to it everything will be ok. When they are first born it’s 8 weeks, once she hits eight weeks there will be a routine – bollocks. Then its 4 months – once they hit 4 months she’ll start sleeping through – bollocks. Then 6 months becomes a magical thing, once she gets some food in her little tummy then she’ll start sleeping/stop milk/start playing the piano. Things just change slowly and I don’t want to force it.

Okay, so I tried to breastfeed. I really tried. Really really really. But the baby was about ten days old, losing weight and the doctors pretty much told me that unless I gave her 'some' formula then I would damage her kidneys. Great. So I did.

Aaaaaand, I think that's one of the main reasons that my breastfeeding got bollocksed up.

Well, I have some medical issues which may also be implicated but we'll never really know if the baby hadn't been introduced to a bottle ('hello Babybear' 'hello Bottle') whether we might have been able to get my supply up a bit more. As it was, with feeding round the clock, domperidone medication and yield tests (expressing every two hours for 48 hours - what fun), combined with the expertise of one of the best breastfeeding specialists in the country, fenugreek, Guinness, other stuff I took that I can't remember.... I managed to get up to about 30% of what she needed per day and so we did mixed feeding (otherwise known as the worst of both worlds) for 17 weeks. It wasn't perfect, but I really loved it. And I think I went a wee bit mental, which helped.

People talk about 'nipple confusion' but I don't think Babybear was in the slightest bit confused. She knew that the bottle was easier and so she slowly took less and less from me, therefore stimulating me less so the whole thing kinda petered out. Gutted doesn't touch it. I was heartbroken. That's why I put myself (and Babybear, if I'm honest) through the mill about it for such a long time. I was so sad when it stopped, so humiliated to pull out my formula bottle in cafes etc and it totally got me down. Still does, when I think about it, which I try not to.

Anyway, onwards and upwards, yes? If I can't breastfeed then I'm sure as dammit going to see to it that she enjoys a healthy and varied diet...

So I look at weaning material online and pretty much everything talks about transitioning from breastfeeding to solids. I understand that the advice has to be pro-breastfeeding, but it rather seems to defeat the point of trying to create a strong and positive lifelong relationship with food for our babies if those of us who couldn't or didn't want to breastfeed feel excluded when it comes to the next stage. Is it a class thing? Are formula feeders, having 'opted' for a processed solution to milk feeding just supposed to head for the jarred food section of the supermarket until the babies are old enough for turkey twizzlers? (Not that jars are inherently evil, don't want to hurt anyone's feelings but... oh you know what I mean.)

Then one day I was chatting with my rather marvelous ante-natal class chums and someone mentions baby led weaning and Gill Rapley. Really? No purees? Straight onto solids? Hhhmmmmm, sounds interesting...

At first I found it incredibly difficult to find written material (hence this blog, ladies) but when I did, on some crazy Dutch website, inevitably came the warning.

"Parents who are bottle feeding their baby should also consult with their health advisers, for the reasons outlined below.

It is not clear whether a baby-led approach to the introduction of solids is appropriate for babies who are bottle fed; more research is needed to establish this, since bottle-feeding seems to be more mother-led. It is difficult to make predictions about how bottle-fed babies will manage solids, so we need to be careful. However, as long as care is taken to ensure an adequate fluid intake, there would seem to be nothing inherently wrong in adopting this approach. It is recommended that parents of babies who are being bottle (formula) fed discuss the matter fully with their health advisers if they wish to use this method."


Oh yeah. I forgot.  I jam bottles down my baby's throat regardless of whether or not she wants it. In fact, I schedule her feeds solely to coincide with my soaps on the telly and the sooner she learns how to boil the kettle so she can make her mother a cuppa, the better.

Ach, I know that's not really what it says, in fact I think it's phrased rather well in a manner that is clearly designed to play it cagey while not ruling out baby led weaning for formula feeders, but when you've tried and 'failed' to breastfeed it doesn't take much to kick you in the chops. And the advice to ask our health advisers..? Fine, but what if they say 'I've never heard of it. Sounds unusual. Don't they choke? I wouldn't do it myself. Do you want a free pack of baby rice?'

So here's what I think. It's not medical advice, it's just my feeling on the matter.

I can see the point that if you do keep to a strict schedule then your baby might be unaccustomed to regulating their own appetite... but I'm not 100 per cent sure I buy it. Maybe it's just my daughter, but I can't get her to drink half an ounce more than she wants to, and she will make herself perfectly clear if she fancies some milk at any time. I haven't met anyone who feeds specific amounts at specific times, and certainly any reading material I have is quite clear about the necessity to demand feed with formula. 

From my experience, therefore, I would say that if you are demand formula feeding I can't see what the problem would be. (Frankly if you aren't I can't see what the problem would be if you were scheduled so long as you were able to cede control to the baby, but it's not something I've done so I can't really comment.)

With regards to the water issue, my daughter really didn't drink much of it to begin with but I made sure it was always available as the formula is unchanging whereas breastmilk has a lipsmackingthirstquenching effect, so too much formula liquid can lead to over-feeding. It took a while and a massive heatwave to get her going with water, and she now drinks from a Tommee Tippee cup while we're out and a shot glass in the house. With varied results...

To be honest, I don't think that Babybear is drinking less milk than she used to, we've just incorporated the solids into her usual intake. (We normally make up about 6-sh bottles of 7 ounces per day, and she drinks what she wants of them. Sometimes loads, sometimes hardly any. She's obviously growing fine so I think what's happening is that the solids are supplementing her feeds so the milk isn't going up but her meal time consumption is. )

So I know this is quite the rant, and to anyone who managed to get to the end of it, well done. All you breastfeeders out there, keep it up, you're doing a grand job, really, and to the formula feeders considering baby led weaning... don't worry, everything's going to be fine.


Post Script
Guess who left a message on the main page? Gill Rapley, that's who. Wasn't that kind? In case you didn't see it, here's what she wrote.

Hi to everyone! Amazingly I have only just learned about this blog - I think it's great! I'm looking forward to reading everything! For now, I just want to comment on the rant about formula feeding:

I'm delighted you've raised this. Personally, I have little doubt that babies who have been formula-fed are just as capable of self-weaning as those who have been breastfed. My hesitation in saying so in public stems from the fact that I am working in the world of academics and health professionals. In that world, any new drug, procedure or idea has to have a research evidence base to substantiate it before it is accepted - common sense is not enough. This is a safety feature - just in case there could be a hidden danger. If I step outside that I will not be taken seriously by people who, if they are convinced, have the potential to share the BLW message with lots of parents. So, since my own small piece of research was done using breastfed babies, I am not able to make assertions that are more general. You, as mothers, are perfectly free to state what makes logical sense - and I thank you for doing so!

One final small note: I hoped to publish my research in 2003 (as mentioned on your home page) but in fact have still not done so! (I am about to re-submit it to a journal after making amendments to the write-up.) I have, however, had a chapter published in an erudite book and am in the process of making a video about BLW. Watch this space!
Best regards to all of you, Gill Rapley

Hooray!

Sorry, just spotted my beloved child spraying water around the room like Moby bloody Dick and remembered that I had meant to write something about water. I'm still not 100% sure about  the rules for Baby Led Weaning and water (what? there are rules?) but I generally just put it out for her to knock off the highchair table.

In the hot weather we've been having recently she has definitely been drinking more, but she has never yet picked up the spouty cup thing by herself other than to chew it. So I always have to pick it up and offer it to her.

As for the actual kind of cup, I've tried quite a few. The Avent Magic Cup magically prevented water from coming out of it and I've heard similar reports about the Tommee Tippee one. Still, I've bought the damn thing now so I'll try it again at some point in the future.

I've let Babybird drink from a glass (sometimes my own, sometimes a wee shot glass which fits her mouth a little better). That's fine but can sometimes end in a drenching, which isn't that practical when we are out and about.

We have also tried those crazy blue trainer teats that they sell in Boots. You just put them into a bottle and off you go, but as I am formula feeding (oooo-hoh, more of THAT later, my friends) I don't want the baby to get confused about what she's drinking so we're going to jack them in shortly.

What else? The very basic Tommee Tippee ones with the solid spout are quite good but seem to explode open when chucked from a highchair. But she can actually get water out of the spout so that is a bonus.

I suppose the best I've found so far is a Superdrug one with a wee straw which curls round the inside of the lid and up towards the spout. The baby seems to like it, she can drink from it, the lid stays on if it crashes to the ground, she doesn't have to tip herself back to drink from it and it doesn't leak badly. However, it doesn't have any protection for the spout so I always feel that it's a bit manky if I take it out in my bag. With the weather the way it is at the moment I just have it jammed into the side of the pushchair with the baby.

Thinking back, it's only in the last week or so that she's actually started drinking anything from those cups, though, so it's hard to say whether she's developmentally ready or tormented by the recent infernally hot weather.