Sweetpea77 I am so sorry you've had a bad experience to knock your confidence. There are lots of supportive people here on the website who will happily offer you advice if your ask politely for it. Just as an aside. My partner got a chunk of apple stuck in his throat the other day. Does that make me an irresponsible partner? Apple is a nasty hazzard for all ages. There is no evidence to suggest that mushing your LOs food now would prevent him/ her from gagging at a later stage. I hope you feel calmer soon. LJ from the forum.