hi lass, i know this is like a year on,nearly from your original rant, but oh my god did you sound like me. i was in a similar situation, had my heart set on bf really didn't know any different thanks to friends and family. but i really went through the mill birth wise and immediately afterwards ended up on drugs(no not the nice class a ones ... only joking) prescribed ones for the first 5 weeks of my little ones life, she was only gaining between 1 to 3 ounzes weekly so advised by heaps of health professionals to supplement, (like you said the worst thing ever) she would get so frustrated and upset with me for not supplying such a good flow as the bottle it was heart breaking to hold her, hungry yet not satisfy her. i hated going out and feeding her for fear of being judged, yes yes yes i know breast is best, but only when they work and your baby thrives. i so wanted to wear a sandwich board saying i did try honest. swapping over there was no advise. i still wanted her on demand but not overfed, eventually we worked it out, and she takes between 4 - 6 bottles of vaying amounts she certainly lets me know when she's finished we have no set pattern or routine, just take it from when she wakes. interesting about the water, naughty mum here, never really gave it much thought, think i'll go get her a cup in the next couple of days